Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and go "Oh shit, i'm 40, my life is statistically more than half over, how did my youth slip away suddenly???"
then i remind myself "time passing is an illusion, a continuous and coherent self is an illusion, most of the cells in my body are less than a year old, i have the memories of being another person but that might be a dream, the only thing i know is real is today, and all that matters is what I choose to do with today"
weirdly, it helps
Mastodon is a non-corporate alternative to a social network like Twitter. It consists of a federation of independently run servers which can exchange information with each other. This server, introverts.social, is meant to be a small and low-key one, intended mostly for people who are already my friends in real life. Sign-ups are by admin approval only.